For he who lacks these qualities is blind or shortsighted, having forgotten his purification from his former sins.Remembering my purification is a daily struggle for me. I have a strong sense of inadequacy about my failings, in part because I was saved at such a young age. I never felt the weight of my sins being lifted from me, because I had only the barest awareness of those sins to begin with.
Perhaps as a result of this, I feel like I've cheated my due punishment, not that I've been saved from it. I will never face the consequences of what I've done, and therefore have a lot of trouble turning away from these sins now. All I remember is the resentment I feel towards myself, for having something I don't deserve, and I know this is stunting my spiritual growth.
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