If, however, you are fulfilling the royal law according to the Scriptures, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself," you are doing well.Right before going over this chapter, I had a minor epiphany. I was thinking about a relative who's going through some tough times figuring life out, and I was thinking what I would say if she was talking to me about it. I was thinking that I'd tell her I loved her, and loving her meant I wanted the best for her, even when it might hurt in the short-term.
That thought kinda stopped me dead, because I realized that if that's my definition of love, then I don't love myself very much. I realized I don't want what's best for me. For a long time, I've looked at myself and tried to picture what I want my future to be like; but then I considered what it would take to get to that future and shrugged it off as being too hard, the cost-benefit analysis came out negative. So, if I don't want what's best for me if it involves work and risk, do I really want someone else to have what's best for them for the same uncertainty? Or am I just saying that to make myself feel superior, and unwilling to do the work for myself?
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