but we have renounced the things hidden because of shame, not walking in craftiness or adulterating the word of God, but by the manifestation of truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God.Shame is a powerful emotion; I've only recently been learning about how powerful it is in my own life. Shame has caused an emotional loop in my life for years, doing things I know are wrong because I don't feel worthy of doing what's right. It's caused me to hide a lot of things, and find ways to sneak them in where no one notices.
However, the solution is scarier than the problem to me. The idea of opening myself up to someone else terrifies me, as there's no one I currently trust enough to consider doing that. The idea that seems to be stated here, to make everything completely public to all believers make me want to run the other way, and I'd frankly rather leave my church and go do it somewhere new with a bunch of relative strangers than where I am now.
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