"But who am I and who are my people that we should be able to offer as generously as this? For all things come from You, and from Your hand we have given You.Being unemployed right now, and because of what holiday is coming up, this caught my attention. I'm not exactly suffering in my unemployment right now. I have good savings, to last a while, thanks to God's prior gifts to me, and his thwacking me with enough wisdom to save. So while I don't have much, what I do have is enough to keep me comfortable.
But it might not have been so. God could have put me in very tight straits, where I had nothing when I was laid off. I could be at my parents' home right now, having had no other option besides to crawl back under their roof. God has allowed me to not resort to that, for which I'm grateful. But if He had, would I still be grateful? Would I be thankful that I had parents able and willing to take me in? Or would I have been resentful about what I'd been forced to do?
I just accepted a temporary job, doing something that's far below my skill level, and I've been hating myself for it. I'm embarrassed to be forced to go back to such meager work, and at such poor pay. Yet I keep telling myself (and anyone else) that at least it's something to keep the lights on, rather than having to drain my savings. But I wonder how much am I blaming God right now for being stuck in this position, rather than being grateful for having something at all?
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